Ellie's FIRST birthday is just right around the corner (next Tuesday!!!) so I'm finding myself even more sentimental and sappy than usual. Yes, the (happy) tears are liable to start flowing over pretty much anything right now.
As her first birthday creeps up, I keep thinking about what life was like at this time exactly a year ago. Lots of reminiscing and smiling and (you guessed it) happy tears on my end lately.
That window of time right before Chad and I were to meet our firstborn? Simply amazing and a special chapter of our life that I will forever hold near and dear to my heart.
One year ago today I was anxious and excited to meet Ellie. I had no idea when she would decide to make her grand debut and I was in a constant state of giddiness knowing I could go into labor at any moment. I was one week, four days away from my due date.
I worried about how and when my water would break.
I worried I might be pregnant forever.
I worried I would have some sort of freakish labor and not know when the contractions truly started (heh) and not make it to the hospital in time.
One year ago today I couldn't stop staring at and touching my belly; still in complete awe of every poke, punch, jab and hiccup felt from within.
I was frantic and frenzied, trying to get e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g in order, wanting to feel as prepared as possible for the amazing but massive life change that was about to take place.
I soaked up quality time with Chad as we coexisted in a constant state of giddiness.
My heart melted as I watched my husband anxiously await fatherhood, as he sang to my belly and kissed it every night, and as he shared his hopes and dreams for his daughter.
One year ago today I couldn't stop daydreaming about meeting Eliana. I played the beautiful moment out in my head countless times, imagining how Chad and I would both react. My heart physically ached to meet her.
I couldn't wait to *finally* hold her in my arms, smell her, touch her, and tell her I love her...face to face. Finally.
One year ago today I had no idea just how much love and joy were in store.